Life but in limbo

The zest and drive that Erin has in tackling life is a real lesson at times.

We have once again had a glimpse of what the future may be like. The pause after Radiotherapy has given Erin the chance to attack life for a change and not just the Cancer.

The swelling pride at the way she has so eloquently delivered her passionate message in Podcasts and TV interviews with such clarity, is tempered by the paternal instinct of concern that she is doing too much.

That pendulum of worry, swings from the desire to constantly check in and make sure she is focusing on her own recovery, but understanding that her willingness to offer support to others, is her way of tackling this limbo of in between times.

It has been refreshing to see her catch up with friends & family and once again be out and about with a more secure immune system.

Her return to training and developing her fitness is encouraging but again spotlights the significant change the Cancer has made.

Still, at least it has allowed her the chance to experiment with some new hair styles!

This lull has offered us all the opportunity to return to our new normal but again it comes with its own ‘what if’s’.

There is a frustration that it can’t be a return to work, which she greatly desires and a realisation that that, in itself will take time.

We once again have to focus on the small steps of what do we have to do next?

The broken sleep has returned and there is a clear observation that for everyone, the gravitational pull is centred on ‘The Scan’.

It’s not a new thing, but with each new one,  it holds more importance and I guess more anxiety.

We know we can’t change its outcome, we just yearn for that glimmer……..The zest and drive that Erin has in tackling life is a real lesson at times.

We have once again had a glimpse of what the future may be like. The pause after Radiotherapy has given Erin the chance to attack life for a change and not just the Cancer.

The swelling pride at the way she has so eloquently delivered her passionate message in Podcasts and TV interviews with such clarity, is tempered by the paternal instinct of concern that she is doing too much.

That pendulum of worry, swings from the desire to constantly check in and make sure she is focusing on her own recovery, but understanding that her willingness to offer support to others, is her way of tackling this limbo of in between times.

It has been refreshing to see her catch up with friends & family and once again be out and about with a more secure immune system.

Her return to training and developing her fitness is encouraging but again spotlights the significant change the Cancer has made.

Still, atleast it has allowed her the chance to experiment with some new hair styles!

This lull has offered us all the opportunity to return to our new normal but again it comes with its own ‘what if’s’.

There is a frustration that it can’t be a return to work which she greatly desires and a realisation that that, in itself will take time.

We once again have to focus on the small steps of what do we have to do next?

The broken sleep has returned and there is a clear observation that for everyone, the gravitational pull is centred on ‘The Scan’.

It’s not a new thing, but with each new one,  it holds more importance and I guess more anxiety.

We know we can’t change its outcome, we just yearn for that glimmer……..